Baby #2

Today we had our 20 week ultrasound and I have been going back and forth on whether or not to find out the gender. I finally made the decision to keep it a surprise, why not right?! I didn't really plan on having a second baby shower since I pretty much have everything I need, except for clothes if it is a girl (fingers crossed).Thru out the pregnancy I have always wondered how am I ever going to love a second baby as much as Noah, there is just no more room in my heart for love. Even when I first got pregnant it just didn't feel the same, and some days I have to remind myself I am pregnant and it was never like that with my first. I know I am so much more busy now, and I have Noah to focus on where before I had just myself and Ozzie. However being in the room today with just my husband seeing our second baby on the screen just made my heart grow!! I am so excited to meet our new baby and I know I am going to love it just the same as Noah...maybe more if its a girl...kidding!!! But that feeling of love is indescribable and it is something everyone deserves to feel, and I feel so blessed that I am able to! The doctor said everything looks great and she even said if I had wanted to find out the gender I would have had to get up walk around, move positions, drink some juice cause the baby was not showing off the parts for her at all! She said she didn't even get a chance to see what the gender was, now if she was just saying that to make my decision easier it definitely worked!! Whatever the gender is I know we will be excited and happy, but now daddy is convinced it is a GIRL we will see...hurry up July!